Wednesday, 15 August 2018

Why The Insta Challenge?

If you follow me on Instagram, you'll have noticed my daily uploads as a visual way of counting down to my 21st birthday. I've liked the challenge and it's been great to upload photos without having any significance to what I'd done that day or any relation to the caption.

But despite this, what I've noticed is that by not planning out my photos for the next day or even the next week and not uploading them the first thing in the morning, my likes are barely hitting what they used to. If anything, I feel lucky to even hit 30-40 likes on 1 post now which, when I have just over 550 followers, I don't like. It makes me feel like my feed is well, useless? I wouldn't say that's the right word but you know what I mean: it doesn't make me feel great when after being logged out of it for a good 2 or 3 hours, I only achieve 7 more likes.

Only 27 likes on this post, all of which I appreciate very much.
 Recent millinery designs for my minor project

My current Insta feed

Okay fair enough, the small number of likes may be down to when I upload the photos. I mean, many of my followers/users may not be active at half 3 in the afternoon when I want to upload that photo. Yet what this made me realise is how Instagram has changed from being a carefree social media platform to one where likes mean something. Sometimes I don't care if I only hit 20 likes on a post because I'm documenting the build-up to a special birthday, but when it comes to uploading images of my university work where I would highly appreciate feedback/love, it's very scarce. And that knocks my confidence.

As I say, the lack of likes and comments may be a result of my poor engagement on the app in recent months and also my blog which I had to push aside because I was too involved and focused on finishing my uni work that I forgot I had set the aim of blogging more often (but that's for another rant on a separate blog post). I scroll through Instagram more now and engage with others on their posts where I want to/can and hashtag plenty on my posts to try and bring the engagement in, but not a lot appears to happen.

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Let's see if I can achieve the 1000 followers mark!

I would love to hit 1000 followers on my account before the end of the year as I feel the amount has been hovering around the 550 mark forever. I'm not saying this isn't great because it is and I am very grateful to those who have followed my account since the start and continue to do so now. Yet with entering my final year and thinking about my career once I've graduated, I want this following to grow. So that means more Insta use, more blogging but most importantly, more uploading for myself to document the year to come.

Much Love
V A x

Wednesday, 31 January 2018

A Little Update

I'm pretty sure I've been down this road already on my blog, yet here I am again explaining to you all why I've been absent from blogging the past couple of months. I'm annoyed at myself that I've let myself get to this position. Again. Yet, it's happened.

Basically, university kind of put me on temporarily hold from blogging. With my deadlines being last month and so much work needed for them, I felt I couldn't find the free time really to think of new content and write so much about it like I did in the summer where my blogging was at its best. Don't get me wrong, majority of the uni work I did I really did enjoy doing, such as my designing and millinery, quite a bit I posted about on my Instagram. I wanted to write new stuff yet the mindset just wasn't there. I felt I was organised enough with my studies for my first set of deadlines this year, but it was a case of I achieved one small part, then another big section was waiting to be completed.

I suppose it wasn't just my studies either that got in the way: it was also the fact that I had hit a wall with what I could have written on my blog. I always overthink what I want to publish on my blog which will be enjoyable to read, something you could relate to and also something that I myself had enjoyed writing. I've always been someone who overthinks everything and it explains why I get stressed so easily: I always want everything to be perfect and, even though I know nothing is ever going to be 100% spot-free perfect, I struggle to accept that I make mistakes. I take mistakes as a positive because that's how I learn, it's how we all learn: so maybe neglecting my blog for the past months was a mistake.

I write this blog as something to do in my down-time. It's a source of relaxation and even know as I'm typing this, I'm writing it so easily because I feel that writing about my own thoughts and opinions is something that comes so naturally to me, and it feels just lovely to do.

That being said, I am fully determined to make the most of what I can do with blogging. I really want to pursue it further this year and take it to a place where I know it'll be worth the hour I took away from uni studies because I am allowed to relax! I'm slowly starting to accept that an hour away from uni studies is allowed and I am allowed to put it to one side and just focus on what goes on outside of uni: my boyfriend, my family, my friends and anything else that does not require stress and study mode to be switched on.

So even though this was titled to be a little update, I rather think it has turned into a unleashing-my-feelings-type post. But I hope it was worth the read, and I look forward to continuing to write my blog as much as possible in 2018 x

V A x